Who Would You Take?

This post was inspired by the classic Charlie and The Chocolate Factory

Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, by Roald Dahl, which
celebrates its 50th anniversary this year. 
To celebrate, Penguin Young Readers Group, in partnership with 
Dylan's Candy Bar, the world-famous candy emporium, and 
First Book, a non-profit social enterprise that provides books for children 
from low-income families, is launching a year-long international celebration.

Head Over to From Left to Write to learn how you and your child can 

have a chance to win The Golden Ticket Sweepstakes where the grand

prize is a magical trip to New York City plus much more! For every 

entry submitted, Penguin Young Readers Group will make a donation 

to First Book.  Then join From Left to Write on July 24 as we discuss 

Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.  As a book club member, I received 

a copy of the book for review purposes.  

 

Here are our excited faces!  

I just got to read Charlie and The Chocolate Factory with my middle man-cub, Larry (as in Moe, Larry and Curly).  I remember seeing the movie as a kid and LOVING the story.  I loved the idea of a magical candy factory right in the middle of the city, and an eccentric ga-jillionaire who could, and did, do any old thing he wanted to. 

I have to be honest, I did not see the more recent version of this movie.  Not because I have anything against Johnny Depp, but because I loved the classic movie so much I was afraid it would be ruined for me, by being remade.  I'm not opposed to new versions of classic movies or songs or stories, but there are some that are, in my mind, so perfectly perfect that you just cannot improve on them.  I hated Madonna's version of 'American Pie.'  

But I digress. 

My son didn't really know the story and didn't know what to expect with the book, but he barreled through it in a day. He's a fast reader, when something grabs his attention, and this book grabbed him, all right.  He was fascinated with the idea of a never-ending supply of candy, and he liked Charlie the best out of all the kids.  He liked that the "humble, modest" kid got a Golden Ticket and he LOVED that Charlie was the one who got the big prize at the end. 

I really enjoy reading books and discussing books with my kids, but they are all boys and they are very literal and concrete.  They don't really think in the abstract much, or nail down themes very well. When asked what they liked most about a story, a typical answer in my house is "all of it." When asked about the best part, a typical answer is "the whole thing."  This is something we're working on! 

When I really get into a good story, it transports me.  I imagine myself in the characters' shoes, and think about how I would handle the circumstances of the story.  I imagine what if? 

So I asked Larry, if you won a Golden Ticket, who would you take?  He answered almost immediately, "You and Dad. You're allowed to take two adults."  

Hmm.  Too easy.  I wanted him to THINK a little.

So I asked what two adults he would take if you weren't allowed to choose your parents.

He thought for a minute and answered, "Ben and Lauren." Ben and Lauren are his two older siblings, my grown stepchildren.  My kids don't see as much of their older siblings as I would like; they are adults, out in the world living their lives.  They both live in other states, but one is much closer than the other.  One is married with a two year old and a brand new baby, the other is a night owl that works third shift and lives on almost the total opposite side of the clock from us. 

I love that he loves them so much, in spite of how little he gets to see them.  I love how they aren't "out of sight, out of mind" for him.  They may not have that close relationship that siblings have when they are closer in age, and see each other all the time, but they are never far from his thoughts.  

If he does ever win that Golden Ticket, I'll arm-wrestle them both, though.....I'm going to the Chocolate Factory.  Just saying.  

Who would YOU take on the adventure of a lifetime?  

On Divorce and The Divorce Papers

***This post was inspired by The Divorce Papers by Susan Rieger.  Young lawyer Sophie unwillingly takes her first divorce case with an entertaining and volatile client in this novel told mostly through letters and legal missives. Join From Left to Write on March 18 as we discuss The Divorce Papers.  As a member, I received a copy of the book for review purposes.*** 

I'm just going to come right out and say, I loved this book.  I thought it was witty and intelligent, and I thought the way it was written, in the form of emails, legal documents and letters, was clever and interesting.  It was snarky and biting in places, and just plain fun to read.  All of that being said, reading this book made me take another look at my marriage, and I experienced a huge wave of gratitude that I am not in the shoes of any of the characters in this book!  

I did marry a divorced man, and I have two stepchildren who are now grown.  While I didn't experience Captain America's divorce right alongside him, much of the wrangling back and forth over what seemed to me, the reader on the outside, to be petty things rang true, for sure.   My husband did not have what anyone would call an "amicable" divorce, and I am not wholly convinced that such a thing really exists.  I would like to be wrong about that, but I have never seen one in person.  And truly, the ones who feel the sting of that reality the most are the kids caught in the middle.  I am sure that my husband and his ex-wife were angry, hurt, resentful, and bitter; I am sure they felt the effects of the emotional hurricane that blows through a family that is falling apart.  I have watched from the sidelines and tried to help pick up pieces of emotional wreckage left in a divorce's wake.  

But their pain is not the worst of it.  The kids suffer more, they just do.  They are young and they're generally not equipped to deal with not only the implosion of their family, but the burden of being the go-between for Mom and Dad, who can no longer bear to speak to one another, the burden of the son who must be "the man of the house now." The weight of the heartbreak of the parent who didn't want to split up and leans on the kids a little too heavily; the responsibility of the daughter who has become her mom's confidant.  Or the burden of the adult issues that should simply stay between the adults, like money and financial decisions. 

I am not naive enough to believe that every marriage can be saved, and I know that some marriages are just not built to last.  I hope that divorce is not in my future, but if it is, I want an attorney like Sophie. 

A Well Tempered Heart

This post was inspired by the novel A Well-Tempered Heart by Jan-Philipp Sendker.  Feeling lost and burned out, Julia drops her well paying job at a NYC law firm. After hearing a stranger’s voice in her head, she travels to Burma to find the voice’s story and hopefully herself as well. Join From Left to Write on February 4 we discuss A Well-Tempered Heart. As a member, I received a copy of the book for review purposes.

I read the prequel to this book, The Art of Hearing Heartbeats, and fell in love with the author's writing and his powers of description that transport me to the sights, sounds and smells of Burma, so I was very excited for the opportunity to read this next book that continues the story.

What struck me about this novel was Julia's willingness to literally go to the ends of the earth to solve the mystery that had sort of taken over her life in a very real way, and the question that I kept coming back to was, would I walk away from the familiar, from my life and my home, to find the answers?

In my post on the other book in this series, I wrote about the idea of home.  And home continues to figure in to this story as well, at least it does for me. Maybe that says something about me :)
Julia seems to be adrift at the outset of the story, and the stranger's voice she hears in her head hones right in on that, alternating between issuing warnings about her colleagues at work and whether she can trust them, and asking some very pointed and uncomfortable questions.  Without giving away too much of the rest of the story, Julia goes to great lengths to unravel the mystery of the stranger's voice and has reasons to contemplate what and where her home is, where she feels at home, and with whom she feels at home.

I moved away from my childhood home, the city where I grew up, when a relationship showed signs of becoming serious.  My boyfriend at the time, who eventually became my husband, lived in a city about and an hour and a half away from me, and we did the long distance thing for a while.  It was okay, it worked out, but both of us wanted more.  He was unwilling to move because he was divorced and his kids were still young, so he didn't want to move any further away and possibly spend even less time with them, so it was really up to me to move, if one of us was going to.

So I did.

It all worked out fine: I moved toward him, we got married, had three kids, and have happily bloomed where we were planted. But not without some growing pains, mostly on my part.  I didn't move so very far away, but I always considered where I grew up to be "home." Where we lived was where we lived, but it was not home.

Only recently has that begun to change.  When I go back to my childhood home, the city has changed.  I don't know it so well anymore.  New stores, new neighborhoods, new schools, new people, new highway layout.  I don't know where I am anymore, when I'm in that city, where all of my family still lives.

We were discussing the possibility of moving for Captain America's job a while ago, and we asked the kids how they would like to live in Columbus, where Mom grew up and where lots of aunts, uncles and cousins live?  They immediately howled, "NOOOO!  We'd miss our friends and our school and our house!" And that was that. Thankfully the need to move never materialized and the discussion was moot.

But it planted a seed in my mind, and I began thinking of Columbus less and less as "home."  I began seeing where I live now, small town USA, as my home.  I have wonderful friends, a lovely community of people with whom I share my faith, my children, and my life.  We're halfway done paying our house off.  I've now officially lived away from Columbus longer than I lived there. And my desire to go home has finally disappeared, mostly because I have realized that I already am home.

What does "home" mean to you?

What Makes You Happy?

 

This post was inspired by Happier at Home by Gretchen Rubin, where she runs a nine month experiment to create happier surroundings. Join From Left to Write on January 6 as we discuss Happier at Home. You can also chat live with Gretchen Rubin on January 7 on Facebook! As a member, I received a copy of the book for review purposes.

I was very excited to read this book; the title is so enticing.  The author, Gretchen Rubin,  previously wrote a book called The Happiness Project, and this follow-up sounded like the perfect how-to book for a frazzled mom who sometimes wants to leave home to get a little peace and quiet.  

It wasn't quite what I expected.  It didn't really read like a "how-to" so much as it chronicles Gretchen's own efforts to create a happier home, which are admirable and something to aspire to, with the "shelf by shelf" de-cluttering process, and one-on-one Wednesday time with her daughter and the twice-daily spouse-kissing.  I love all these ideas.  

It's just that I'm the only one in my house that clutter bothers.  I have by no means given up, but I realize I am fighting a losing battle.  Given that my traveling spouse, Captain America, is gone half of every month and the travel schedule changes from month to month, and all the kiddos are in school all day, that pretty much takes care of the Wednesday Adventures and the twice-daily kiss.  

So, my own happier at home happiness project would look a little different from Gretchen's.  And that's ok.  She makes the point several times, that what makes each of us happy is wildly variable, and frankly, I've operated by the seat of my pants for so long now, that having Captain America home every night for dinner at 6 would just be weird.  I love my children more than my next breath but I need them....no, I mean I REALLY NEED them to go to school all day.  

While the book wasn't quite what I expected, it did get me thinking.  What makes me happy?  Am I unhappy?  Do I need to do something differently?  How can I be happier?  Do I need to be happier?  And I came to the conclusion that I'm pretty darn happy most of the time, and I'm not all that introspective.  I'm happy with my chaotic, often cluttered home, and my chaotic, overcommitted life.  If I am unhappy, I can generally point to a specific reason, a thing that has happened or an attitude from one of my kids, that has made me unhappy.  I don't spend much (ok, any) time considering whether or why which possessions make me happy. I kiss my husband more than twice each day he's home.  Unless I'm mad at him, but that's not often.   But in the end,  I pretty much always default back to happy.

It's good to take time now and then to check in with yourself, especially when you're in the trenches of parenthood and attempting to maintain some semblance of a marriage while raising people at the same time.  But at the same time, I don't think it's wise to spend too much time contemplating and analyzing and working on your own happiness; life will pass you right by.  Your spouse's life will continue to happen and your kids will be moving into their first college dorms or tiny walk-up apartments far sooner than you think they will.  I will have more time to work on my clutter then.  

What makes you happy?  Would you embark on your own "happiness project"?

 

The Funeral Dress

 

***No one has ever entrusted impoverished Emmalee with anything important, but she takes it upon herself to sew her mentor's resting garment in The Funeral Dress, by Susan Gregg Gilmore.  Join From Left to Write on Oct 15th as we discuss The Funeral Dress.  As a member, I received a copy of this book for review purposes.***

This book really struck a chord with me.  It's a sad story in many ways, and it's a story of strength and resilience and hope in other ways.  But what really struck me is that Emmalee was a motherless mother.  

How do you learn how to be a mother, when you don't have one yourself?  Her mother died when she was a young girl, and her father didn't give her much to go on. Emmalee had to fight for every single thing she had, and she didn't have much.  The women that surrounded her at her job became her surrogate mothers, although they may not have realized it at the time.  Her own family did not support her or offer her any kind of shelter from the storm and she was essentially alone.  Her parting gift to Leona, the one woman who really cared about her and tried to help her in a time of need, was all that she could give, and it was everything.  It was a perfect gesture in keeping with the relationship she had built with Leona.

Leona had taught Emmalee how to sew, but she taught her so much more along the way.  Leona mothered Emmalee

In some ways, I can relate to Emmalee's situation.  No, I didn't grow up destitute in a mountainside holler, and I wasn't a young unwed mother, but I lost my mother when I was a child, and I had to learn to be a mother without having one of my own.  I was lucky enough, like Emmalee, to have a few people around me who were willing to step into the void and help me learn.  Those women are thankfully still with us and not in need of a funeral dress.  I don't know how to sew, but reading this book and thinking about my childhood made me wonder.  If I had the chance, how would I repay that debt to them?  How could I show my gratitude for how they shaped my life, and by extension, how they affected my children's lives?  

I don't know if I ever can.

Reasons Mommy Drinks

 

REASONS MOMMY DRINKS 

(Includes 100 Cocktail Recipes to Enjoy in Your Zero Free Time), by Lyranda Martin Evans and Fiona Stevenson

As a contributing member of From Left to Write, I received a copy of this book for review purposes. 

Since I received it in the mail, I did not have the opportunity to find it while perusing the shelves of my local bookstore, but I have to start with the Lego ice cubes in the drink.  I LOVE THIS image!  LOVE it.   I am the mom of three boys, all of whom have a seriously committed relationship with Legos; I think it's absolutely perfect that they're accessories to alcohol in the cover photo. 

I was thoroughly amused by this book.  No, that's not exactly right...it was more like interrupt- Captain-America-while-he's-watching-football, "OMG you have to read this, it's hysterical" funny. In the spirit of full disclosure, my kids are (and therefore I am) a little bit older than what I imagine the target audience is for this book.  But pregnancy, childbirth and my children's infancies are not that far removed from the dusty recesses of my memory, that I couldn't relate to nearly every page of this book.  

It's a recipe book of sorts, served with a generous helping of self-deprecating wit and snark and camaraderie for moms: newly pregnant, about to give birth, just gave birth and moms in the trenches.  It's for all of us.  Each drink has a theme and a pacifier rating system, as in, how badly do you need this drink?  Some drinks are 1- binky drinks, where yeah, you might could use it.  Or you might just as well enjoy handing baby over to daddy and zoning out in front of What Not to Wear for awhile.  Then you have your 5-binky drinks, which are CRITICAL.  You need it NOW. STAT.  Someone could get hurt.  

The drinks sound pretty good, and I am going to try out a few of them.  I don't object at all to alcohol and I understand the need for it.  It's just that don't mix a lot of drinks for myself.  I kind of cut right to the chase; I pretty much just open the bottle and go. But what I loved, and read out loud to my husband and my mommy friends and laughed till I cried about, were the topics and stories that went with the drinks.  Here's an example: The drink is a Mudslide.  Most of us have at least heard of a Mudslide, even if we haven't actually partaken. 

Ingredients:

Chocolate syrup

1/2 ounce vodka

1/2 ounce coffee liqueur

1/2 ounce Irish cream

Splash of milk

Instructions: 

Drizzle chocolate syrup around the inside rim of a glass, and then fill the glass with ice. Pour in the vodka, coffee liqueur, Irish cream and milk, and stir.  

How badly you need this drink:

5 binkies

The story that goes along with the desperate need for a Mudslide is called Explosive Poo.  That's pretty self-explanatory, but the paragraph that describes it in hysterical, horrific detail will really bring the point home.  You're going to have to read it for yourself to truly appreciate it.  I will give you this much though:  "There is no waiting for Daddy to get home, though, as The Situation must be dealt with lest you get a diaper rash.  But oh, the horror that unfolds with the diaper."  

Really, who among us can't relate to that?  

If your kids are past this age, pick it up and reminisce.  And then pass it on to your pregnant girlfriend, or neighbor, or daughter in law.  But if you are in the thick of pregnancy or the baby years, this is book is written just for you.  Do yourself a favor and get it.  You can read it two pages at a time and that will be enough. 

Check out the authors' website here and order the book here!

Happy reading!  And drinking. 

Daddy's Girl

 

This post was inspired by the novel The Execution of Noa P. Singleton, by Elizabeth L. Silver. Mere months before Noa's execution, her victim's mother changed her mind about Noa's sentence and vows to help stay the execution. Join From Left to Write on July 30 as we discuss The Execution of Noa P. Singleton.  As a member, I received a copy of the book for review purposes.

I wasn't quite sure what to think when I read the jacket of this book.  I wasn't quite sure what to think when I finished the first chapter.  Or the second.  The writing is terrific and it grabbed me right away.  The story was, honestly, a little hard for me to read at first.  

I didn't really understand Noa, and what she was thinking. As I read more about the relationship between Noa and her father, I began to understand her a little bit better.  It's fascinating to me, how we repeat patterns in our relationships in spite of our efforts to change those patterns, and even the relationships we say we don't want affect and influence us. 

I did not, and I have a few female friends who did not, have good or healthy relationships with their fathers.  I have heard it said and read in several places, that a child's relationships with the opposite-sex parent sets a course for that child's future relationships with members of the opposite sex, and from the vantage point of 40-plus years of life experience, it sure seems to be true.  When I was younger I didn't always see it that way, and took some pride in choosing relationships with men that drove my father crazy, simply for the purpose of driving him crazy.  For the record, I did outgrow my daddy-rebellion and my husband is only like my father in that he is a guy.  Thank goodness.  My dad informed my parenting to the extent that he showed me what not to do.

What is really interesting to me is that, ironically, I am a parent to only male children, and I am extremely aware of how, by my mothering, I am determining to some extent the kind of woman my sons will likely be drawn to.  It reassures me and scares me at the same time.  I think we have good and healthy relationships and I am very hopeful that will continue once they are all teenagers.  (Only one of them is right now; so far so good).  I hope to raise good boys who will grow into good men. 

I pray that I will use my influence wisely, and teach them well.  I pray that when they are grown, their memories of me will be happy; that I will have been a good example of how to love a child. 

I am the daughter my father raised, but I am not Daddy's girl.  It seems to me that although she professed not to care, Noa was her father's daughter, more than she thought.